This was NOT the plan!

This is not how I planned my life out and before you say it I know…If you want to make God laugh, tell him your plans.

Let me give you a little back story about me…I was the little girl who always wanted to be married with kids. I am not sure if I have ever said the words I don’t want to get married or I don’t want kids. This is something I have always wanted, yet here I am late 30’s and I have neither.

I had my whole life planned out…I was going to meet Mr. Right in college, get engaged after we graduated and then we would both work a couple of years while planning this fabulous wedding (of course my wedding was already planned I just had to bring it to life). After marriage we would buy a house with a white picket fence, have 2.5 kids, and a dog. Yes, I am scared of dogs but stay with me LOL!

Cue Romantic music:

At the rehearsal I would have on an all-white jogging suit with the future Mrs.___ on the back.

The wedding would be perfect, my dress princess style, my hair in curls with the top pinned up. Shoes… White Keds decorated with lace and pearls (the shoes the daughter wore in Father of the Bride), my colors Blush and Bashful (from the movie Steel Magnolias) you see I have been planning for years.

Add curls and this is my vision!Add curls and this is my vision…I figured you needed a visual!

 

The next day we would have a BBQ where my husband & I would have on t-shirts that say just married!

Our honeymoon would be in Disney World…because it is the greatest place on earth!

You see the plan was perfect, flawless if I must say so myself… Yet, it still hasn’t happened; I can’t even say I’ve been close.

According to my plans I should be celebrating about 15 years of marriage at this point.

But instead I’m only celebrating starting a blog…which is exciting don’t get me wrong but celebrating a wedding anniversary would be nice, or a kids birthday.

I guess it is true if you want to make God laugh tell him your plans & he will show you his.

I have no clue what the future holds …BUT I do know I should probably stop planning!

Signed,

Almost 40

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24 comments

  1. Evelyn · June 24, 2015

    Many people can relate to this on so many levels. I am married but no kids yet and want one. I know God has a plan for me! Love it!

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    • caneshagordon · June 25, 2015

      Thanks so much for reading and sharing. That’s why I did it for messages like these. Thank you!!

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  2. Tory · June 24, 2015

    Don’t stop planning, just continue to be patient. I love, love, love your wedding ideas! Too cool. This was yet another great read and I can totally see you in that dress. Yesssss hunty!!

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    • caneshagordon · June 25, 2015

      Patience is a virtue…I’m working on it lol! Thanks for all of your support!

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  3. Jernika · June 24, 2015

    It’ll happen for you!

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  4. Tia Dixon · June 24, 2015

    Almost 40… I am with you….I was 39 when I got married..just made it lol and I want kids but God has other plans right now..I keep smiling and going to baby showers but inside my heart is breaking. But I must remember God knows what’s best and I must lean to his understanding not my own. Sometimes we could want something and it’s not own season to have it and when we force it it turns into chaos.
    #stayencouraged
    #Jesusknowsbest

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  5. Jay Mo · June 24, 2015

    Are you in my head Canesha. Ha! Story of my life. Good Job!!!

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  6. Tonya Dillard · June 24, 2015

    Hey really enjoyed keep them coming…

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    • caneshagordon · June 25, 2015

      Thanks you, thank you for reading!! I’m definitely going to try. It’s a lot in this head just waiting to come out lol!!

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  7. Kenya · June 24, 2015

    I can definitely relate and feel you 10000000%. All my immediate circle of girlfriends are married and doing couple things. I celebrate them wholeheartedly but I want it too…what about me Jesus! I deserve it…im almost 40 with a kid!!! Lol. But I found out that its at the moment you finally turn it over to Him (i mean really turn it over where your prayer and praise gives you chills), step aside, and have several seats that God shows up suddenly! When you least expect it!! we have to realize that the desires…who we desired..the type we desire isnt Gods desire for us, so like you said, tell Him your plans…your desires and watch Him laugh. Your time is coming…our time is coming we just have to wait for the divine plan. Rest well in your singleness, get a me and Jesus attitude and watch him show up! #minehas

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    • caneshagordon · June 25, 2015

      You just said something…I wanted to shout. Thanks for sharing and reading. I know it’s all is HIS time!

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  8. Jenean Davis · June 24, 2015

    Once again…you’re on it! Thanks for the glimpse into your story that’s so much like my story and many others. Keep doing what you’re doing and using your gifts and talents in this way!

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    • caneshagordon · June 25, 2015

      Thanks girlie…I’m finding I’m not the only one and the support is amazing. It’s just my truth & im loving to share. Thanks so much for reading!!

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  9. Courtney Bramlett · June 24, 2015

    Absolutely love this! I can relate on so many levels! People tell me all the time it will happen. But, when? All in God’s perfect timing!

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    • caneshagordon · June 25, 2015

      I know right & that is so a blog topic lol!! Thanks for reading!

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  10. Kizzey · June 25, 2015

    Another great read with the beautiful visual..love it..yes tell God your plans and see/hear him laugh..lol.. Keep living and loving life and everything will fall into place as he has planned for you!..and me too I hope😊

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    • caneshagordon · June 25, 2015

      Thanks girlie! I know right…one day. Thanks so much for reading.

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  11. Aisha · June 25, 2015

    When I tell you that I know this story…ugh!Be of good cheer,because it will all happen in the blink of an eye! Great read!!!

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    • caneshagordon · June 25, 2015

      Thanks for reading & im learning it’s a lot of our stories which is what I thought. And why I started the blog. Thanks so much! Stay tuned…it’s a lot in this head lol!

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  12. Missy · June 26, 2015

    After my divorce when my happily ever after was ground into dust, I found a quote that I liked so much that I made a plaque of it and hung it at my desk. Maybe you will find it helpful, too. “You must let go of the life you planned to find the life that is waiting for you.” And the life that was waiting for me was even better than the one I thought I lost 🙂

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    • caneshagordon · June 26, 2015

      Hi Missy…thanks so much for reading!! And I LOVE that quote. So awesome & so true. That’s where I’m trying to get. It you read my about me it basically says I’m trying to figure out the life I didn’t expect!!

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